February 2011
A perfectly ok day.. Minus the fact of mega snow shakes fists and the ‘oh fuck tomorrow’s monday’ moment I had earlier on this evening.. Yup I think I need to take some time off soon lol
Brandon actually messaged me! I’m kinda surprised I thought I’d never hear from him again! I’m ok though not like dying to hear from him at this point but just nice to.. So I think I’m in a good spot so far.. Me thinks lol
“What about little microphones? What if everyone swallowed them, and they played...”
– Jonathon Safran Foer- Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close (via loveyourchaos)
why do I bother explaining anything massively important to you.. you do the same thing over and over.. I must have stupid written all over my forehead…
I deal with things differently then you and I’m not ‘passive’ just because I’m not diving in head first to go head to head with these people its like for what? something that we can’t go back into the past and...
Thank you for following me davidcrowley.. your...
not ever..
I am so stupid..
its happening all over again.. like I just..
wrong guys.. every time.. I start to get this incessant infatuation.. and its like for the love of pete leave me alone go away..
I mean this has been always a mini crush.. just kinda sitting there in the back of my mind.. nothing major.. never been an issue at all.. and then !!!!BANG!!! a few days ago its like it knocks me in...
Death always seems to cast sucha haze… Always disarray and discombobulation.. And yet it brings people together.. And you try to remember the good times through the tears.. So absurd the rush of emotions in one fail swoop… And then in that moment when it all ends your left standing there clammouring to pick up the pieces… And trying to figure out how to move on..
Either...
whatever..
just when I think things are ok..
one of the girls just snapped at me today saying I haven’t been in the office all day.. and then proceeds to tell me that she doesn’t need a play by play of what I’m doing during the day.. well then if you’re worried I’m not getting my work done tell me that.. don’t snap at me.. I’m hear late today.. I was hear early...
Yayayay! Ursella made it out of the alley!! w00t!!
This afternoon was awesome.. Got to spend some time with a really close friend and it just made me realize how much I missed him.. And just even how much has been lacking in my life.. Right before he picked me up I had gotten into it with gammie again.. I feel bad but realistically I’m only human and there’s only so much I can do with a few days off a week and she’s lonely I get...
need my helmet
why..
how am I that memorable.. honestly..
you made me soo uncomfortable, and it just wasn’t a good experience, and you knew it cause I was friggen crying.. and I was relieved to know you were gone..
and now you’re coming back.. and supposedly want to ‘get together again’..
I’m flattered but wtf..
my brain is exploding..
I need my helmet lol.. triple padding..
share it with me..
find me a morningstar..
don’t catch it..
just find it..
show me that space, that place where you found it..
that’s the moment I want..
that look in your eyes, that brightness that intruige, that rush..
that you found it..
and you were kind enough to share it with me..
makes me wonder..
some how the vibe in the office has changed..
maybe its just me being tired, and a snot bag..
perchance everything really has changed..
and I’m just getting left behind..
I just wanted to do a good job.. I was taught how to do this job sporadically, then had someone from bc come teach me for a week after I almost self taught, and used other means to teach myself how to do this.. with the...