I’m struggling today..
Maybe its the lack of sleep but I dunno.. everything is just like ‘seirously? wtf’… Last minute test sessions that one of the other girls didn’t want to do, I am stuck doing, and then it’s like oh well here’s this person and this person and all of a sudden the list is at 10 and 1 guy shows up.. oh well..
then my chat with my new manager.. I’m getting kind of frustrated.. I know things are good but I feel like I’m just a waste of her time, because realistically my chats with her are getting shorter and shorter.. and its like ok.. great thanks I feel like I shouldn’t bother opening my mouth to speak.. like why bother chatting with her.. today it was 7 minutes.. the time was slated for 1/2 an hour..
and then there’s brandon.. haven’t heard from him was really glad he wasn’t messaging me and then bang.. it’s like oh I’m moving back to edmonton, oh jen will take care of my pets bla bla bla, and all this stuff and its’ like why are we still talking again? why on earth are you still messaging me? will I have to resort to telling you to fuck off.. oh probably now..
this is like the monday from hell, this is why generally I try to work from home on mondays and why I avoid coming into the office..
I am more then angry I feel like everything is just bubbling over.. after all the stupid shyte on the weekend, how I was stuck at home with gammie.. it just irritated me to no end.. the fact that I get antsy in the place where I live is sad but it’s a fact.. like I have gotten 0 peace.. and even when I go to the gym its a small thing but all it does is give me a small dosage of time to myself.. and it makes me more angry and sad after the fact in a sense because I can’t have that when I need it unless I drag my ass to the gym..