There is no way to change his mind.. there is nothing I can do to make him see me.. and I need to let this go.. I just need a distraction.. and the one time I really need it more then anything.. its just not happening.. I don’t want to ride this wave anymore.. I don’t want to hold out for something that’s never going to happen with him.. and in this case looks like with anybody else for that matter… I reactivated my pof account in hopes that o could find a distraction but so far nothing yet.. its only been a few days but still.. not even a bite… Nothing… I just want him out of my head and heart its making it very difficult to focus and I need to focus on work.. more then ever I just need to focus on something anything other then him.. and right now its just not happening… I feel so dumb for going down this path all over again when I promised myself I wouldn’t…. But here I am yet again… And there’s not a thing I can do.. I have to remain as distant but there for him at the same time.. and I don’t know if I can do it.. I have to try because I don’t want to lose his friendship but.. its just killing me… Slowly..